Here we go…Inventory time. ~sigh~

OK So we are almost to inventory and I will be soooo glad to just get it over with. For anyone who doesn't know…inventory is where an outside compnay comes in and counts ALL the stok in the store to see if our own counts are right and how much we have lost from theft and stuff. There are two things I hate about inventory: 1}The night before we don''t do anything but line up everything on the shleves and 2} I am working one of the WORST departments for inventory time. Thankfully this year, I have the night before off…so it won't be me lining up laundry detergent bottles in perfect little rows and making sure that anything out of place gets put away. Of course that means that I have to hope they get someone who will do a decent job of it in there that night because it is a bad department to count on the best of days. So many little bottles of cleaning supplies and stuff…UGH>

Hopefully our store will do OK on the inventory count…and then I will be able to relax a little. After all the crap that has been going on there recently I just want to get thru it all in one piece. We have so many people who are complaining about EVERYTHING and who want to b****h about our store manager. Personally I don't really have any problems with her…I think she is doing the best she can considering people are acting like asses. And with all the BS meetings with the big wigs that people are having now…I am amazed our store is still standing some nights. It doesn't make a bad situation any better to whine and complain and quit doing your job right. So many people have slacked off the the bare minimum of work because they aren't happy with management…and then are complaining because management is complaining that they aren't getting their work done. Ummmmmmm DUH! Do your job…right and as best you can….and they won't complain. It really is that simple.

So things are stressed to the max, and ALL shifts are shorthanded and getting screwed over because they won't let our store hire anyone else. I am dealing with it OK most of the time. {SD would tell you I am getting majorly pissy some nights but that isn't actually work-related anyhow} I just give them what I can…more than a lot of people would…and keep going. Too many people don't have jobs for me to be b***hing when I do have one. I think my biggest problem is the number of people who actually seem to think they are "indispensible" to the company. Ummm WAKE UP! people – this is Wal~Mart….it isn't exactly rocket science they are teaching people. Any one of us could be replaced relatively easily in all actuality.

How hard is it to teach someone to read labels, find things on the shelves and put up more stock? Or to do the things the department managers do, or the day floor associates, or cashiers, etc etc etc. They are putting on a big show about how important they are and really the company could replace us all in about one day…just from the number of people who put in their applications in a week. There are a lot of unemployed around here….and a lot of them could do my job easily…so I am not going to b***h about it and then have them find a reason to get rid of me and replace me with someone who will happily do it just to put food on their table and pay the bills. I am too passive to actually say that to any of these people who are whining…but I wish I could.

OK there's my rant for the day…I am off to hang out with my sister, my nephew and his friend until it's time to head back in for another long night. See ya'll when I post again…Beth

 

The Reasons I do What I do At Work!!!!!

{Juliette and Justin at Chuck E Cheese 4/17/2006} 

It’s the end of the world as we know it…

And I FEEL FINE!!!! {Sorry but the stupid song is stuck in my head and I can't get rid of it. It started when the kids were both freaking out at me about different things at the same time…and screaming their cute little heads off. So I am passing it on to whomever's head it may get stuck in from reading this! ~LOL~}

Anyhow…I can't get my pic to upload of the lil brother in Hawaii…so I got a link to it from PALady {at her house now…using her puter} and am going to try to get it on here…~LOL~ The link is HERE in case I can't figure out how to get my "edity bar" {PALady's name for it…not mine} to show up so I can actually get the pic to show up here.

Beth

Update: OK my little "edity bar" is gone…and I have no clue how to get it back so just click the link to go see the picture!

Update 2: PALady had the patience to sit here and figure out where my "edity bar" went…and better yet she got it back for me. So here we go again….let's see if we can get the picture to actually show up on this page:

                                                       

                                                        {Woo Hoo…it worked…THANK YOU SISSY!} 

Easter…and Hawaii…and Chuck E Cheese {How’s that for a mix?~LOL~}

Well Easter has come and gone…the second one without DH {which now stands for Departed Hubby in my case} It wasn’t any easier facing all of this crap alone…but at least it wasn’t the worst holiday I have ever had. Actually for the most part it was really nice…and dinner at PALady’s was DELICIOUS! I made two apple pies…and even with their little mishap {thanks Justin} everyone enjoyed them. For me it was a big deal to make anything more exciting than fruit salad…~LOL~ {Even if it was just pouring the filling into the pie shell…putting another shell over it for a top…and cooking it.}

The “little” brother will be back from Hawaii on Friday. He will only be in town a week tho…so not much chance to really visit with him. Then he is off to Philadelphia for a couple weeks…and then back to Hawauii for two or three months more. I’m adding a picture of him and one of his coworkers that made the Honolulu Star Bulletin yesterday. Even if I didn’t know one of the guys in the picture…it is a really cool picture! The Momma is going to try to get the local paper to reprint it with a little story about the trip…I hope they do it.

Ahhhhh…and last but certainly not least, the kids had their trip to Chuck E Cheese Monday with my MIL and SIL. They had a wonderful time…really seemed to have enjoyed it. And I enjoyed the extra sleep I got b/c they weren’t home. Working nights may kill me before Justin is in school full time if I don’t start getting more {and better} sleep. If it wasn’t for PALady loving me enough to watch Justin {and sometimes both kids} on the weekends, I wouldn’t get more than the naps I get when my MIL takes him on Monday and Friday afternoons. {I am extremely grateful to her as well…without her and PALady I wouldn’t get any sleep except on my nights off!}

Well I am outta here…gotta do Juliette’s hair and get the kids ready b/c I have to work tonight. {YUCK YUCK YUCK Anyone wanna work for me for awhile?}

Beth

Dammity Dammity Dammity…

Well I still feel like total shit…and even worse now that I talked to my sister-in-law. Guess she heard at work that I am getting stuck outside for lawn and garden security. Oh Yippity Do Dah f-in Day!!!!! I am soooooooo not impressed by this information. And if they think I am gonna be out there all night putting there grills and stuff together they are NUTS!!!!! That job is almost the worst job they can give someone…it’s where I started with the fricking company and it was a “sh*t job” then. So WHY, when tomorrow is the three year anniversary of my first day there, am I getting stuck with this AGAIN????? More than half the stores don’t even have anyone for this anymore…heck we are one of the ONLY stores in our district that still does. I had to do it a lot last year…and I thought it sucked then…and I was totally pissed off…but I did it b/c Joe and Mike asked me to. And now I will do it for Glenn and Ryan but NOT because I like it. I do it because it’s my job…I do what I am told…but I am not going to go along with it quietly this time!!!!! I am going to make sure everyone, including the store manager, knows I am doing it only because I HAVE TO. 

And sure as hell I am going to start looking for another job…I don’t give a shit what I lose in benefits and crap…I really don’t. It almost killed me being out there in the cold, getting soaked watering plants and stuff last year. I can not handle that crap anymore. I did it to get into the company…that was IT…the ONLY reason! It was supposed to be a “foot in the door” job…not a repeat adventure every frickin’ year. It’s not like I don’t do a damned good job inside…and not like they don’t need me in there. Hell I have been doing the chemicals department by MYSELF for months…and doing a damned good job if I do say so myself. This feels like a punishment job almost…So what am I being punished for????? Getting sick this week and not being able to work? Not like it was by my choice…the doctor refused to let me work b/c he said this damned flu is too contagious. Did they want me spreading it to everyone who shopped for laundry and dish soap this weekend or what?

I am sooooo mad…I can’t even describe it right now!  And I still feel like total crap…so I am getting off here and going to watch “The Little Mermaid” with my son. I have to call and talk to my managers tonight to see if I can make up one of these nights I’ve missed…so maybe I will ask him about it when I call. I just don’t think this is fair at all….NOT AT ALL!

Beth

A week later…

Unlike my sister…I don’t post every day…lol. Maybe someday when I have time to remember that I want to. Not much new here…finally got the truck back today!!!! Woo HOO!!!!!

 

I’m sick…sore throat, achy muscles, ear aches and the whole nine yards. If the chills and sweats don’t kill me, I could survive anything I think.

 

I really don’t know what to say…and I am feeling too crappy to sit here and type right now anyhow…so I will try again tomorrow.

 

Beth

Thoughts For The Day…

Let’s see…the world is becoming such a scary place to live…I am starting to hate it BIG time. No wonder I want to lock my doors and never go outside again. {Then again…my son is on his THIRD playing of “The Little Mermaid” today…so getting out more would be nice at times!}

Reasons to stay home and keep my children away from the rest of the world: 

1}There was a bomb threat found at a local ELEMENTARY school last week. My daughter was actually in that school until we moved at Thanksgiving time. This school is pre-K thru 6th grade…so it was a young CHILD who wrote a threat on a bathroom wall. It was found after school…and the ploice cleared the school that night…but still! The high school in our district {10th – 12th grades} was on lockdown for over 5 hours last week as well because a “threatening note” was found. A friend od the family is a sophmore there and she said she got stuck sitting in the locker room from 9:30 to 2 that day. {Ummm…we kep children in the school when something like this happens?} She said she spent most of it laying on the floor sleeping. They still haven’t figured out who was responsible but the papers did say it was the FIFTH such threat since June of last year. {heck these kids weren’t even in school from June 13th to the beginning of September.} 

Oh…and our local news stations carried NOTHING about the lockdown tho a station about 2 hours from here did. I found out b/c my daughter’s biological father called me…his wife had seen it on the news and he wanted to know what the heck was going on. I had no clue…finally found a story on a news website…but not a local one.

2}The man who shot and killed two of our county sheriff’s deputies two years ago was officially sentenced to death yesterday morning. Sheriff’s Deputies Michael VanKuren and Christopher Briggs were killed in March of 2004 while attempting to serve warrants on Dustin Briggs and his then girlfriend. These two fine upstanding men were killed over meth…a drug that seems to be overrunning our area, and this whole country. The presiding judge had this to say to Dustin at his final sentencing yesterday “You appeared to me during the trial, to be a man without remorse and humanity.” After all he has taken away…he has yet to say one word of apology or even tried to explain how he could do what he did…

I met Chris’ widow, Kim, and their little boy, Christian last summer and become at least email friends with Kim. I also work with Chris’ Mom. They are all wonderful people who didn’t deserve to lose Chris this way. Nor did Mike’s widow and children. Elane was unable to even comment on yesterday’s sentencing to the local papers. Yesterday was Mike’s birthday…she should have been telling him Happy 38th birthday, not looking into the face of the man who shot him in cold blood. Christian will be 5 this year…so many years of growing left to do…and his Daddy, who adored him, will not be there to see it. Like my son, Christian was too young to understand that his Daddy was dead…so Kim explained to him that Chris is “in the stars” now. When my husband passed away I told our son, Justin, that his Daddy is a star now…watching over him and his sister every day. He still says “Night Daddy. Me lub you!” almost every night before he will go to bed. On cloudy nights he gets upset b/c he can’t see his Daddy’s star. I wonder if Christian is the same way?

3}A New York state Trooper {Andrew Sperr} was shot and killed less than 30 minutes from here after a robbery. The suspects were changing vehicles and Sperr was not even aware yet of the robbery. All three were indicted on charges last Thursday. Another senseless death…another upstanding man killed before his time by criminals who will probably show no remorse in the end. New York’s Senate is moving closer to approving the death penalty again…though I don’t know if it will be in time for these men to be sentenced to it. Do I believe in the death penalty? I would have said “Probably not” a few years ago…but as I watch these frightening crimes come closer and closer to home, I have begun to believe these criminals are getting no less than they deserve. What right did they have to take these mens lives? These men had wives…children…families who loved and adored them…all of whom will never be able to say “I love you” to them face to face again. The murderers families will fight the death penalty…they will lose someone they love dearly as well…but the murderers brought it on themselves.

4}A 26 year old woman was charged with smothering her TEN WEEK OLD to death about an hour from here. From what I have heard {not sure how much is correct at this point} the baby wouldn’t stop crying and the mother was tired/upset. So about 2 AM, she held the baby face down into the mattress until the little one stopped crying. It took 15 days before the police officially accused her. I also heard that she then went back to bed and didn’t check on the baby until NOON.  Please tell me WHO has ever heard of a 10 week old who slept for 10 hours straight???? But she didn’t realize that she had killed her baby? Maybe it was post-partum depression, maybe the baby had colic and the mother had barely slept in days…I don’t know. But how do you justify KILLING your infant in any circumstances?????

5}“The driver in the New Year’s Eve crash that killed a 2000 {local} High School graduate waived both his preliminary hearing and formal arraignment Tuesday, effectively entering a plea of “not guilty” to the charges filed against him.” This boy and his best friend went out and were drinking New Year’s Eve…they ended up in an accident and his friend was killed, effectively ending the lives of not one but TWO promising young men. The driver is “facing charges of homicide by vehicle; involuntary manslaughter; homicide by vehicle while driving under the influence; purchase, consumption, possession or transportation of liquor or malt or brewed beverages; driving on roadways laned for traffic; driving vehicle at safe speed; careless driving; reckless driving; restraint systems; and four counts of driving under the influence of alcohol or controlled substance.”

Unfortunately a stupid teenage thing…and we all know MOST teenagers have done it at one point or another…ended in the death of his best friend. Now he will have to pay for his crime. But what bothers me is the rumors about where these boys got the alcohol…and drugs…found in their systems. Local teens {my nephews are 16 and 19, so I have “inside sources”} are saying two things. 1.}The boys were at the home of a local sports coach {from their high school alma mater} and 2}that they were “partying” with a local police officer. Either choice is sickening to even think about…and more sickening if they are actually TRUE. These well respected adults…in high positions locally…may have been serving alcohol to these young boys…and as of yet no one seems to know for sure. Worse this 20 year old has not admitted where he got the alcohol from…and may never do so, since he will be “ratting out” someone who is important to him. ~sigh~ The stigma of being a “rat” at his age, may even outway the possibilty that he could be in less trouble if he were to say where the alcohol and drugs came from.

Well I suppose there are many more things I could talk about…but I have been typing forever…and I have cleaning to get done. I’m sure I will find more things to make me want to stay indoors forever, so expect more posts of the same. ~sigh~

Beth

 

Pictures?????

OK I am trying to figure out how to get pics uploaded on here but so far no luck…maybe it is just because my puter is a piece of junk that is over 2 years old now. Anyways at SOME point I will be posting pics of myself, my kids, and of course my Eddie. Would love to post pics of SD but can’t at the moment…some day tho!

 For anyone who happens to pop in from Conceiving Community…HELLO and Welcome! Not much to read yet but I am working on it…and ya’ll will probably find out more of what’s going on with me and the kiddos here than anywhere else. Hope all is well with all of you and your families…remember you’re always welcome here!

 

Beth

PA Lady gets linked by NEWSWEEK!!!!!

Well my sister, PA Lady and her blog got linked by Newsweek yesterday: http://msnbc.msn.com/id/7681925/site/newsweek/?articleid=11824180! Woo Hoo Sissy! That is the link to the Newsweek post…and Jenn is the first in the list: “Business as usual at the WH”. You can also check out her blog at http://www.palady.wordpress.com  She has a lot of very interesting posts on her views of the current White House administration…and other things. She touches on a lot of issues that affect all Americans every day…so check her out!

CONGRATULATIONS Sissy! Baby sister is soooooooo proud!

 Beth

Day Off + No Truck = NO FUN!!!!!

Hello again all…

Well I shouldn’t be on the puter, cuz I know that the garage will be calling soon to tell me what all I need for inspection…but since I know I can’t pay for it all until next Thursday what the heck? I had it at Monro just to get checked out and they are saying it needs like $650 worth of stuff just to pass…and $1100 in repairs total. BUT I have heard from a lot of people around here that our Monro place might not be very reliable so I took it back to my regular guy to look at and actually work on. For one he always works with me…and for another he is just an all around nice guy. So I figure I am better off sticking with him anyhow. My uncle-in-law is also a mechanic and my sister in law keeps bugging me to go there…but my regular guy is the one my husband ALWAYS used and really trusted. If HE wasn’t taking his vehicles to his uncle…why is she suprised I don’t? Not that I don’t like their uncle…but I trusted my husband’s judgement on a lot of things…and he took his vehicles to the other guy every time. Maybe I am just holding on to the past…and Eddie…this way, but oh well. I’m positive there will never be a day that he isn’t in my thoughts or that I won’t find ANOTHER way I am holding on to him.

I just bought a new statue type thingy for his grave a couple weeks ago. We already have one that is a slide with a lil boy and girl going down it. This one is a tree with a tire swing with a lil girl and boy in it. I see things that make me think of everything he is missing with them…and I tend to buy them. Someday if I ever own my own home I am sure my yard will have bunches of little garden statues I have bought thru the years for his grave…kind of sick, huh? I miss him a lot still…and some days I still can’t quite believe it wasn’t all a dream…well nightmare. Who knows…maybe my whole 28 1/2 years on this planet has been a dream and someday I’ll wake up to my “real life.” I hope Eddie is there in my “real life” having a great time and watching the babies grow up.

Like I said in my first post I am dating someone…SD…and he is the second great love of my life. {My Eddie being the first great true love of course.} SD is about 21 years older than me…and has kids in my age group {3 of them actually}. He has grandkids the same age as my son. But ya know what…he loves me and respects me in ways I can’t begin to explain.

What I am going to say would probably upset any guy close to my age…but they have to get off their asses and put down the video game controls to read it, so I am not too worried about any of them actually reading here. As for the computer junkies among them…well my opinion of them isn’t much higher than the video game freaks…so forgive me anyone who isn’t like this. Maybe I have become cynical over the years…watching these immature little boys turn into immature men…but it seems like an awful lot of them never grew up. This is all from what I see almost on a daily basis of guys around here…so I may be way off on what others see.

Take last night for an example…I am on my yahoo, chatting with an acquaintance about nothing in particular. I get an IM from another guy and decide to risk saying hello. BIG MISTAKE! Even after I explain that I am in a relationship…and happily so…and that I am a ONE MAN WOMAN with no interest in anyone else, he still proceeds to ask me if I want to meet and “have fun” with him…and sends me a picture of his {expletive deleted}. Ummmm Hello…did I not just ask if the pic was DECENT????? What if {heavens forbid} one of my children had been standing next to the computer when that came up? I was furious…and got more so after yet again explaining that I am in a relationship and happy…he proceeds to say well “If/when you two split up you can come have fun with me” Ewwww…as if I would ever! I am not the most upstanding person in some regards…and I don’t claim to be all proper when it comes to s*x BUT how could anyone who has never MET you…barely known you 10 minutes online…want to do that?

I realize that this country’s morality ias going down the tubes but I still can’t believe the absolute lack of respect guys my age show a woman. Worse are the guys in relationships,a lot of whom have kids, who would rather sit home playing video games {or on their computers} than support themselves or their families. I know guys who have kids who haven’t worked in a year or more but who’s wives/GFs have full time jobs…some even have two jobs…and still have to come home and cook, clean, take care of kids, etc.

HELLO! WAKE UP GUYS! You can’t have everything…if you are going to sit on your a**es all day and she is going to work…the least you can do is watch the kids and clean up after yourselves. Heck…why not try cooking HER a meal for once instead of saying “When’s dinner going to be ready?” the minute she walks in the door after working 8 hours to support your sorry butt. Just because women now have jobs outside the home…should not mean your sorry butts can sit there playing games all the time and not helping out. The big thing is…when the men worked and the women stayed home…the women had to cook, clean, etc. So why do men my age feel that they can just sit on their butts while the women do all of that AND hold a job?

Is it any wonder I don’t date men my own age? Hmmm…let me think about that? I can’t stand it when I see guys doing nothing and expecting so much of their wife/GF…and I know WAYYYYYYY too many guys who do it. Most of them within 5 years of my age or younger. My husband wasn’t innocent of this himself. I was working nights full time before he got sick and there were days I would come home and he was up all night playing his X-Box…guess which one of us got to stay up with the baby all day? That’s right…he went to bed and there I was exhausted from working and trying to keep my baby out of trouble all day long.

OK I have ranted for the day. Guess that guy last night bothered me more than I thought…

See ya’ll later!

Beth

Here I am…Hello Word Press

Well I have decided to try out WordPress {my sister PALady has a blog here and really seems to enjoy it. I have another blog but that is more like my personal journal…whereas this will be my place to express my opinions…vent on issues…and just write about whatever. Let’s hope anyone who happens to stumble on me here enjoys what they see.

 For now…here’s some history…

I’m a 28 1/2 year old with two children, juliette {9 1/2}and Justin {4 next month}. My husband passed away in October of 2004 from brain cancer that had spread to his spine.  I am currently in a relationship with someone, SD, that has given me back a lot of the energy my life lost when my husband passed on. I work overnights at our local Wal~Mart as a stocker…and right now am working 4 ten hour shifts a week. I don’t get much sleep during my working days, but the extra night off has given me back a lot of the rest I needed.

 Not really much else to say right now. I will post again soon but for now have to get off the puter b/c SD will be calling and I don’t want to miss his call. {having dial up kind of stinks sometimes}

EOwen77