Hello again all…
Well I shouldn’t be on the puter, cuz I know that the garage will be calling soon to tell me what all I need for inspection…but since I know I can’t pay for it all until next Thursday what the heck? I had it at Monro just to get checked out and they are saying it needs like $650 worth of stuff just to pass…and $1100 in repairs total. BUT I have heard from a lot of people around here that our Monro place might not be very reliable so I took it back to my regular guy to look at and actually work on. For one he always works with me…and for another he is just an all around nice guy. So I figure I am better off sticking with him anyhow. My uncle-in-law is also a mechanic and my sister in law keeps bugging me to go there…but my regular guy is the one my husband ALWAYS used and really trusted. If HE wasn’t taking his vehicles to his uncle…why is she suprised I don’t? Not that I don’t like their uncle…but I trusted my husband’s judgement on a lot of things…and he took his vehicles to the other guy every time. Maybe I am just holding on to the past…and Eddie…this way, but oh well. I’m positive there will never be a day that he isn’t in my thoughts or that I won’t find ANOTHER way I am holding on to him.
I just bought a new statue type thingy for his grave a couple weeks ago. We already have one that is a slide with a lil boy and girl going down it. This one is a tree with a tire swing with a lil girl and boy in it. I see things that make me think of everything he is missing with them…and I tend to buy them. Someday if I ever own my own home I am sure my yard will have bunches of little garden statues I have bought thru the years for his grave…kind of sick, huh? I miss him a lot still…and some days I still can’t quite believe it wasn’t all a dream…well nightmare. Who knows…maybe my whole 28 1/2 years on this planet has been a dream and someday I’ll wake up to my “real life.” I hope Eddie is there in my “real life” having a great time and watching the babies grow up.
Like I said in my first post I am dating someone…SD…and he is the second great love of my life. {My Eddie being the first great true love of course.} SD is about 21 years older than me…and has kids in my age group {3 of them actually}. He has grandkids the same age as my son. But ya know what…he loves me and respects me in ways I can’t begin to explain.
What I am going to say would probably upset any guy close to my age…but they have to get off their asses and put down the video game controls to read it, so I am not too worried about any of them actually reading here. As for the computer junkies among them…well my opinion of them isn’t much higher than the video game freaks…so forgive me anyone who isn’t like this. Maybe I have become cynical over the years…watching these immature little boys turn into immature men…but it seems like an awful lot of them never grew up. This is all from what I see almost on a daily basis of guys around here…so I may be way off on what others see.
Take last night for an example…I am on my yahoo, chatting with an acquaintance about nothing in particular. I get an IM from another guy and decide to risk saying hello. BIG MISTAKE! Even after I explain that I am in a relationship…and happily so…and that I am a ONE MAN WOMAN with no interest in anyone else, he still proceeds to ask me if I want to meet and “have fun” with him…and sends me a picture of his {expletive deleted}. Ummmm Hello…did I not just ask if the pic was DECENT????? What if {heavens forbid} one of my children had been standing next to the computer when that came up? I was furious…and got more so after yet again explaining that I am in a relationship and happy…he proceeds to say well “If/when you two split up you can come have fun with me” Ewwww…as if I would ever! I am not the most upstanding person in some regards…and I don’t claim to be all proper when it comes to s*x BUT how could anyone who has never MET you…barely known you 10 minutes online…want to do that?
I realize that this country’s morality ias going down the tubes but I still can’t believe the absolute lack of respect guys my age show a woman. Worse are the guys in relationships,a lot of whom have kids, who would rather sit home playing video games {or on their computers} than support themselves or their families. I know guys who have kids who haven’t worked in a year or more but who’s wives/GFs have full time jobs…some even have two jobs…and still have to come home and cook, clean, take care of kids, etc.
HELLO! WAKE UP GUYS! You can’t have everything…if you are going to sit on your a**es all day and she is going to work…the least you can do is watch the kids and clean up after yourselves. Heck…why not try cooking HER a meal for once instead of saying “When’s dinner going to be ready?” the minute she walks in the door after working 8 hours to support your sorry butt. Just because women now have jobs outside the home…should not mean your sorry butts can sit there playing games all the time and not helping out. The big thing is…when the men worked and the women stayed home…the women had to cook, clean, etc. So why do men my age feel that they can just sit on their butts while the women do all of that AND hold a job?
Is it any wonder I don’t date men my own age? Hmmm…let me think about that? I can’t stand it when I see guys doing nothing and expecting so much of their wife/GF…and I know WAYYYYYYY too many guys who do it. Most of them within 5 years of my age or younger. My husband wasn’t innocent of this himself. I was working nights full time before he got sick and there were days I would come home and he was up all night playing his X-Box…guess which one of us got to stay up with the baby all day? That’s right…he went to bed and there I was exhausted from working and trying to keep my baby out of trouble all day long.
OK I have ranted for the day. Guess that guy last night bothered me more than I thought…
See ya’ll later!
Beth
Re the truck: Ever feel like life is going in circles? I mean, look at us now, and where we were three years ago. Same s**t, different day.
Re men: Like Mom always told us during the great S-E-X lecture/talk: Guys are pigs and dogs – and they never grow out of it. They just develop Peter Pan-syndrome.
Personally, I think you just got lucky with SD, because most guys his age are the age group that thinks hubby should work and wifey should stay home, cleaning the house and waiting breathlessly to fulfill his every whim. Then we got the guys who think equal rights means wifey-type person can do everything while they do nothing.
~LMAO~ SD is one of the men should work wifey should stay home guys at heart I think…BUT he knows better than to try that with me. We had that discussion once and I basically told him he is crazy if he thinks I will ever quit working so a guy can “take care of things” for me. Did that with Eddie before he was my DH…and he kept running off and leaving me to pick up the slack. Of course SD also says he wishes some other person would have worked at SOME point but she would work a month or two and then quit b/c she didn’t like it.
I am just sick of other guys…the “wife does it all, he plays video games” jerks. Most of which seem to be in MY age group or younger from what I can see. Ya know the ones who were boys when Nintendo came out…and haven’t let the controllers out of their hands since????
Good point. Not that the guys in my age group are any better. *ahem, cough* Having been married to someone who defines “Peter Pan Syndrome”